Monday, September 13, 2004
Did you know a screwdriver can puncture your skin?
Frustrating thing number one: My Pre-Calculus teacher told us that there will be a rare day when there's no homework.
Number two: I get twenty vocab words a week from my English teacher. And I'm supposed to memorize them by the end of the week.
VERY frustrating thing number three: I'm too dependent on people.
Why would that be frustrating you ask? Because unlike normal people, I seem to be a superhero when it comes to empathy...but dislexic when it comes to expressing my own feelings- and still I'm dependent on other people.
Still, it seems to be perfectly "normal" that I depend on people. It seems to be something that's common in our society. Girlfriends depending on Boyfriends and visa versa...wives depending on husbands and visa versa...pastors depending on churches and visa versa...It's all over! But what happened to being dependent on God?
That's my main problem. I knew I was depending on my friends and family and mentors for lots of things...but the painful realization that I hardly depended on God was like a getting hit with a two ton beam. It seems to me that the Holy spirit is doing the hitting...and I'm not really putting up much of a defense. Which in this case would be doing something about it.
So if it's so frustrating and if I know about it...why is it so hard to change?
Number two: I get twenty vocab words a week from my English teacher. And I'm supposed to memorize them by the end of the week.
VERY frustrating thing number three: I'm too dependent on people.
Why would that be frustrating you ask? Because unlike normal people, I seem to be a superhero when it comes to empathy...but dislexic when it comes to expressing my own feelings- and still I'm dependent on other people.
Still, it seems to be perfectly "normal" that I depend on people. It seems to be something that's common in our society. Girlfriends depending on Boyfriends and visa versa...wives depending on husbands and visa versa...pastors depending on churches and visa versa...It's all over! But what happened to being dependent on God?
That's my main problem. I knew I was depending on my friends and family and mentors for lots of things...but the painful realization that I hardly depended on God was like a getting hit with a two ton beam. It seems to me that the Holy spirit is doing the hitting...and I'm not really putting up much of a defense. Which in this case would be doing something about it.
So if it's so frustrating and if I know about it...why is it so hard to change?
